This week has been really humbling...me and my wife sat down and talked for a few hours...everything she said was all truth...I never try to make excuses for my actions.. When I'm wrong I'm wrong period...I now see I wasn't listening to her and entering her world when she needed me...I now see how selfish and one sided I was...which made me think about a painting I did a few years ago for an art show with Pinz-n-Needlez in DC... It's called "Just Listen" some advice I should have followed myself...the painting was based on people just shutting up and listening to the souls of the people around them... To step out your shoes and put your feet in the shoes of others...being trapped in my "dreamland" where dreams and reality are one to me I often forget about the lives of the people I love around me... Having tunnel vision and only seeing my goals not taking any breaks in between to give myself to my family...serving the people but not being there for the peope close to me... The older I grow the more I see how fucked up in my ways I was....but the question is can I step outside of my world and go back to my foundation which is my family? Can I shut up and LISTEN? My free spirit just floats around like a balloon... But who will hold the string that's attached to the balloon? Will they let the string go so I float off into the sky for not listening? Or will they keep faith in me and hold the string tighter because they know a balloons don't live long? I will shut up now and "Just Listen"
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All that you said is totally logical however with all the words written LOVE was seemingly a cover for unnamed obligations. I completely understand and currently identify with wanting to do what's right by our families (no relation) who have a long shared supportive history with us but don't we as artist...human beings..People deserve JOY. To be true to OURSELVES? How much positive energy can we possibly offer to our family if our heart is only partially present. No one likes to be held captive, truthfully the captor won't be happy long term either. We only get one life and we can't change our yesterdays but with our tomorrows not promised is it fair to settle in any parts of our lives, especially in our personal lives. I worry if easing the temporary burden of pain caused by my actions to my family justify me loosing parts of myself. Guilt and fear are better weapons in a hostage situation than any firearm.. Only the strongest of us negotiate our lives into that freedom land. JMO
I am so inspired. thank you.
I believe that there is a balance in life. It is very easy to be consumed with self (whether positive or negative). We sometimes overly indulge in our human nature and dont listen. We dont listen to those that we love. Balance is key.
see??.... thats ws up Miya! thats ws up! much love to you and the Mrs. hang in there.... and tell my cancer sis I said ws up~
yall gonna be aight... :)
S~
Sole I doubt will be alright i'm just hoping we can always be cool with each other... Time heals all wounds but she will never forget....it's time for a new chapter and I want her to find happiness... She a beautiful soul I know she will...
bless words there
I hope y'all can work that out. These are the trying times/ things that get you to those twenty, thirty, forty year marks in marriage. My cousin divorced her husband, then married him again three years later! To tell you the truth, they are stronger now than they were before. Keep the cheerleaders of y'alls relationship close.
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